you, you still don't have the progression to be the same path as everyone else.
1) find the love one. 2) great job & money 3) settling down. 4) married. 5) children. 6) long vacation.
thats the norms, thats how we live in this life. Women do have expired date. you have to get pregnant before 30 years old. at least get 2 children. that's suffice. Having a great career, enourmous money to spend, big house, big car. That's the standard of life. That's how people judge you if you're successful or not.
that's the ideal of life.
people like us... people whom still searching the meaning of life. still unsure bout what is the really thing that we want and need in this life. yeah.. talking about 'need'... in terms of physical facilities, that's not the point. well, yeah, Thanks to God you're still alive at this very day.... but talking about 'want'... That's the idiocy.. human will never ever satisfy with have all the things that they want in this life... you cant deny it. but that's how we are. again, i repeat... we are never satisfied with all of the things that we yearned for in this life;that we already have... or be it about to have.
even the multi-billionaire people we can't simply saying that they are happy. we're talking about the wellness of life... the quality of life.. that can't be measured solely in terms of $$$.
be it happiness in relationship, sex, belonging, safety, and so on....
and love... love is a mystery.. yeah it is... people can simply sayin' I LOVE YOU to you.. but what will they do to GET you?
in the name of GOD, for all of the failures and heartaches that you have faced before.. makes you afraid to chase the love.. chase your own happiness. but even though if that's the case..
do you know what's the only thing that matters in life?
is it love?
is it fame?
is it wealth?
is it family?
or simply it's all about you.. all about the money and great career ahead... you're about to come to an end.. to the long vacation that do not urge you to find your own dimes ( when you're still studying.. of course!). Afterward, you wouldn't know how life will treat you.. in terms of accepting new responsibilities.. to find your own money, to pay ur own bills, cars, house, etc.
And yeah.. of course.. life would be at its best if there's loyal companion ( a lover of course). But that's the thing that you WANT. and don't forget i correlated the word of 'want' with 'idiocy'. because you don't know what to expect after all. will you be happy if you have one? will you be suffer if you don't have one? if i were bout to get married without love, is it okay to move on? and people will respect you cuz u live this life ACCORDINGLY?
oh what a mess.. what a depressed that you wish it could go away from your mind...
life ain't easy. NOTHING comes easy.
n that's how we should live.
and is it wrong if you were about to live this life... being headstrong person... aka... "Determined to do as one pleases, and not as others want". wouldn't it be great if there's no one would care if you get married or not.. if you don't have any special lover yet... ???????
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
guys, had u watch AVATAR? if u haven't .... please go and see it by urself!
i had watched this movie last Sunday with my friends, onie, dayana and hafizi. At first i never thought that this movie would takes almost 3 hours duration! but fortunately! it doesn't tore my eyes down.. n yeah, even though we're know that the movie is full booked. but we're manage to see it.. even though we have to sit 3 first front seat level! yeah it is kinda painful for ya neck. but what the heck, we're ready to get the experience of AVATAR.
n yeah, im not the kinda person who really eager to write a blog about a movie i'd watched. believe me guys, im a movie goers, and statistically, i have to watch movie at least per week. im 22 y.o. now, n yeah i had watch soooo much movies in my entire life. n yeah ofcuzz i had watch titanic too.. as it is being directed by James Cameron too. n please , u do know that this AVATAR movie is directed by him too..but this is the movie.. that i must say.. the best movie of the century!
i never thought that i would be impress.
i never thought that i dont want to be human again after i watch this movie...(cuz i feel like i wanna be na'vi!)
n yeah i never thought that im writing this !!!
(trust me.. i dont get paid by promoting AVATAR to u bloggers).
trust me, if u read the review on the net such as in imdb, or positive review by rotten tomatoes.. this is a movie that 99% of human being on this earth would love n the left will hate. (i just don't get for haters that mocking this movie).
well,you can read the synopsis in the imdb site. but.. the thing is, this is the movie that makes me aware... (despite the beautiful scene of the movie , the technology 3d and stuff) , i have gain the awareness. that how cruel we are to the mother nature. seriously.. i do think previously that money is almost everything.. but once we're forget to preserve the mother nature... that's the problem would start.
in Islam, human should be a Khalifah, or the Leader, that Allah had grant us with this land to share and to preserve and use the source wisely. not to burn it down or destroy it! for the name of WEALTH.. we're have become soo insane!
n yeah, about the racist issues in this movie. no one can deny that.. western people do think that they are more superior than any other race in this earth! what were they call it again? White Supremacy? yeah.. it really does prevail in this movie.. n that's why they mock the native residence (na'vi) as the blue monkey, doing dance monkey when they start to invade and bomb their land, n etc.
but please have in mind that, we're all the same. we're should have the compassion and the rationality to withhold the balance or to maintain the eco-equilibrium. seriously.
Gosh, i don't need to preach. Just watch this movie.. and see it for yourself. your judge.
Friday, November 14, 2008
1997
this is the year that i am 9 years old. i am the youngest, and my siblings all girls. i have two sisters, which me and my sisters have a large gap in age. whom my first sister is 28 y.o, and my second sister is 27 y.o. whilst, im still 21 y.o. huhuhu..
and please do not ask me why our age quite vary... plus, i never ask my mom about this. But one thing for sure, my sisters being taken care of my grandma at kampung, till they were 12y.o then my mom send them to boarding school. So, to give a clear picture, i never thought that i have sisters till in 1997. they come back home after they're got long holidays from boarding school.
There and then, theres a lot of conflicts goin on. i seem doesn't like the idea of having sisters since i love the life being 'anak tunggal' (the only child). My sis keep bullying me, becuz they said im too spoiled. which at my side, i think that my privacy in the house is getting reduce or in other words LIMITED. I am very furious when theres alot of routine things i did had interrupted by them. Then, i often let go of my tensions (other than crying at the bed by ) by expressing myself in Art form.
My sis always trying to push me to do the households which for god sake, im still 9 y.o. and i always broken the glasses. My mom always warned me not to get near to the kitchen. But my sis always take opportunities whenever my mom does not at home. They force me to clean my own room, wash the dishes, clean the house, screaming at my ears, hit me and so forth.
But, the main things that i want to write now is not bout them. Its bout the year that i found out i have so many interests in music, fashion, and drawing (everything that Art lah).
I remembered i won the 3rd place for drawing's competition ( the competition participated by thousands of kids) which at that time im only 6 y.o. The competition held at melaka. And i stil remembered after i get back home, the radio tuned the bonjovi's song and i started to humming the song.
And, back in 1997. Backstreet Boys was publish their first single and very popular songs 'i'll never break your heart' and that year also Hitz.fm started to exist. My neighbour had backstreet boy's album and borrowed. And every single day, i listen to their songs and i can finally memorized their songs. i've become their no.1 fans unofficially. hahaahha.
One thing that i really glad that i started to love backstreet boys, at least my english language is improved. Living in a small town where u dun have the chance to communicate in english, even my parents never trying to teach me english. I just take my own efforts, i learned english by listening to the radio ( ofcuz hitz.fm), television, bought english album ( i bought the boyz 2 men,mariah carey, Max complications,third eye blind etc). i learned the pronunciation from the singers. Which, unconsciously i had the American's accent. Until today.
Then, back in school all my friends started to admire me cause i know so much about english's songs. i still remembered when i was 12 y.o. i sang 'truly madly deeply' by savage garden with my best friends, ayu at school's backyard.. and we skipped sembahyang asar and always give excuses to the Ustaz that we're having our 'period'! hahaha... so notty that time.
The fashion interest started wen i watched too much Disney cartoon, and even my dad bought their books. I always imagine myself wearing those beautiful garments! and, due to my creativity.. i draw a 'human' and with some 'clothes' , and make a match-try with paper. huuhu...
Thus, the writing interest also emerge when i love to wrote poem how to reflects my feeling. And, i still remembered when i was 11 y.o. my parents almost divorced and theres a lot of things going on.... so much tenses and i tink that is why i have become such a 'critical thinker' nowadays.
this might a lil bit funny becuz all my frens always said that i have this such fucking helpless BLUR face when ppl trying to talk to me. and i always give late reaction. I thought i might be a lil bit abnormal hahaa, but my counseling lecturer told me that for those person who had this kinda blur problem, its not due to their slow thinking but its cuz of too much thoughts going on at their head! . And, for people who love mathematics and physics commit such problem also. This is not becuz they're slow, its just technically.. OUR thinking is way too fast than average ppl! huhu thus, that fast cognitive basically cannot being presented in a average speed.
huuh.. The year of 1997 had changed me so much as a person. I found that i have sisters ( so, for now i have become a tolerated person). Its one thing that if you have siblings, you learned to give and take. Even its not that cool! huhuh.. but its not that i might want to state the only child tu... tak pandai give and take!! huh. its depend on individually though...
Life can only make u happy if u re-state your mind that you can't make urself being lovely and acceptable to all of this people in universe. Learn to accept urself and say
" I AM ME, THERES ONLY ONE 'ME' IN THIS WORLD, MAKE URSELF UR OWN ENTITY"
Embrace urself if u do mistakes ( make it as experience), and... if people cant say that u r SPECIAL enuf for them, its ok.. u dun have to force urself to be special.
:)
and please do not ask me why our age quite vary... plus, i never ask my mom about this. But one thing for sure, my sisters being taken care of my grandma at kampung, till they were 12y.o then my mom send them to boarding school. So, to give a clear picture, i never thought that i have sisters till in 1997. they come back home after they're got long holidays from boarding school.
There and then, theres a lot of conflicts goin on. i seem doesn't like the idea of having sisters since i love the life being 'anak tunggal' (the only child). My sis keep bullying me, becuz they said im too spoiled. which at my side, i think that my privacy in the house is getting reduce or in other words LIMITED. I am very furious when theres alot of routine things i did had interrupted by them. Then, i often let go of my tensions (other than crying at the bed by ) by expressing myself in Art form.
My sis always trying to push me to do the households which for god sake, im still 9 y.o. and i always broken the glasses. My mom always warned me not to get near to the kitchen. But my sis always take opportunities whenever my mom does not at home. They force me to clean my own room, wash the dishes, clean the house, screaming at my ears, hit me and so forth.
But, the main things that i want to write now is not bout them. Its bout the year that i found out i have so many interests in music, fashion, and drawing (everything that Art lah).
I remembered i won the 3rd place for drawing's competition ( the competition participated by thousands of kids) which at that time im only 6 y.o. The competition held at melaka. And i stil remembered after i get back home, the radio tuned the bonjovi's song and i started to humming the song.
And, back in 1997. Backstreet Boys was publish their first single and very popular songs 'i'll never break your heart' and that year also Hitz.fm started to exist. My neighbour had backstreet boy's album and borrowed. And every single day, i listen to their songs and i can finally memorized their songs. i've become their no.1 fans unofficially. hahaahha.
One thing that i really glad that i started to love backstreet boys, at least my english language is improved. Living in a small town where u dun have the chance to communicate in english, even my parents never trying to teach me english. I just take my own efforts, i learned english by listening to the radio ( ofcuz hitz.fm), television, bought english album ( i bought the boyz 2 men,mariah carey, Max complications,third eye blind etc). i learned the pronunciation from the singers. Which, unconsciously i had the American's accent. Until today.
Then, back in school all my friends started to admire me cause i know so much about english's songs. i still remembered when i was 12 y.o. i sang 'truly madly deeply' by savage garden with my best friends, ayu at school's backyard.. and we skipped sembahyang asar and always give excuses to the Ustaz that we're having our 'period'! hahaha... so notty that time.
The fashion interest started wen i watched too much Disney cartoon, and even my dad bought their books. I always imagine myself wearing those beautiful garments! and, due to my creativity.. i draw a 'human' and with some 'clothes' , and make a match-try with paper. huuhu...
Thus, the writing interest also emerge when i love to wrote poem how to reflects my feeling. And, i still remembered when i was 11 y.o. my parents almost divorced and theres a lot of things going on.... so much tenses and i tink that is why i have become such a 'critical thinker' nowadays.
this might a lil bit funny becuz all my frens always said that i have this such fucking helpless BLUR face when ppl trying to talk to me. and i always give late reaction. I thought i might be a lil bit abnormal hahaa, but my counseling lecturer told me that for those person who had this kinda blur problem, its not due to their slow thinking but its cuz of too much thoughts going on at their head! . And, for people who love mathematics and physics commit such problem also. This is not becuz they're slow, its just technically.. OUR thinking is way too fast than average ppl! huhu thus, that fast cognitive basically cannot being presented in a average speed.
huuh.. The year of 1997 had changed me so much as a person. I found that i have sisters ( so, for now i have become a tolerated person). Its one thing that if you have siblings, you learned to give and take. Even its not that cool! huhuh.. but its not that i might want to state the only child tu... tak pandai give and take!! huh. its depend on individually though...
Life can only make u happy if u re-state your mind that you can't make urself being lovely and acceptable to all of this people in universe. Learn to accept urself and say
" I AM ME, THERES ONLY ONE 'ME' IN THIS WORLD, MAKE URSELF UR OWN ENTITY"
Embrace urself if u do mistakes ( make it as experience), and... if people cant say that u r SPECIAL enuf for them, its ok.. u dun have to force urself to be special.
:)
can girls and boys be bestfriends without affection?
I still remember when i was a kid, my bestfren is my neighbor who is a boy. His name is hafiz and im 3 years older than him. Hes the first one who ever influence me to listen to backstreet boys's album when i was 9 years old.
So there and then, i started to play football, calling roger roger, wrestling and all boys' game. Till my mom warned me to behave like a girl or else she will send me to religious school so i can be mould to be SOPAN ( decent ).
Former,I have a lots of boy friends compare to girl friends, its due to my perangai yang nakal nak mampos... i even dare to baling batu kat kepala budak laki.. cuz i feel superior due to my height is higher than them.
Eventhough, I've bullied enough all my frens,as times goes by and we'd grow, suddenly i am pendek than those guys... hence, we're still a good friends but in turn, they bully me back! :)
Nowadays, its hard to find guy friends like what i got from primary school....... the understanding is.. if u befriend with guys , its going to be a feeling , affection, emotional, love, or anything that you wana call it...
I just wanna have guy friends that can be my accompany through easy and pains, boleh gelak2 bagai nak gila di kedai mamak, can shopping2 together, can build up networking in any aspects and lots more.
But instead, HERE IN MYSPACE....... i just don't know whether myspace had been consideration to be A FLIRTING's site, whilst friendster is a FRIEND's site..and BLOGSPOT only for interest of people who love reading or just plainly inborn stalker?
One good example, a guy would befriend with me if they think im single... but when the truth is prevailing, gradually......... they will go away from me.
This is such a sad story though... i just wanna befriends.. and can be my geng to melepak2... funny enuf.. as im getting older, my guy friends r becoming few.
Here are my guy friends that still can lepak2 with me but hey, they still got special gf.......... Azri, hafizi, and cacak....
hopefully, our society would be more open minded... doesnt mean that, when u started a frenship outside ur college or school.. it was meant to be more than friend?
think wise.
So there and then, i started to play football, calling roger roger, wrestling and all boys' game. Till my mom warned me to behave like a girl or else she will send me to religious school so i can be mould to be SOPAN ( decent ).
Former,I have a lots of boy friends compare to girl friends, its due to my perangai yang nakal nak mampos... i even dare to baling batu kat kepala budak laki.. cuz i feel superior due to my height is higher than them.
Eventhough, I've bullied enough all my frens,as times goes by and we'd grow, suddenly i am pendek than those guys... hence, we're still a good friends but in turn, they bully me back! :)
Nowadays, its hard to find guy friends like what i got from primary school....... the understanding is.. if u befriend with guys , its going to be a feeling , affection, emotional, love, or anything that you wana call it...
I just wanna have guy friends that can be my accompany through easy and pains, boleh gelak2 bagai nak gila di kedai mamak, can shopping2 together, can build up networking in any aspects and lots more.
But instead, HERE IN MYSPACE....... i just don't know whether myspace had been consideration to be A FLIRTING's site, whilst friendster is a FRIEND's site..and BLOGSPOT only for interest of people who love reading or just plainly inborn stalker?
One good example, a guy would befriend with me if they think im single... but when the truth is prevailing, gradually......... they will go away from me.
This is such a sad story though... i just wanna befriends.. and can be my geng to melepak2... funny enuf.. as im getting older, my guy friends r becoming few.
Here are my guy friends that still can lepak2 with me but hey, they still got special gf.......... Azri, hafizi, and cacak....
hopefully, our society would be more open minded... doesnt mean that, when u started a frenship outside ur college or school.. it was meant to be more than friend?
think wise.
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